Symbols of the Self

 

Introduction

 

          I visited India for the first time in 1969.  Although it has since become a cliché it would be fair to say that on my arrival in Bombay I felt that I had ‘come home.’  I couldn’t put my finger on the source of this feeling at the time but I later realized that India was special because she did not speak only of herself.  In America the objects encountered on a daily basis are purely self-referential.  You meet a person with a unique name.  When you think about the name your mind goes nowhere.  It is just a label for the body standing in front of you.  A semi tractor trailer is a ‘Mack’ or a ‘Peterbuilt.’  We do not ask if there is any deeper meaning because there is none.  Pubic buildings say things like, “I am an insurance office” or “I am a fast food joint” and nothing more.    Even the churches seem ashamed to point elsewhere and often resemble dental clinics more than houses of God. 

In India, however, nothing is as it seems.   True, everything is what it is but at the same time it participates in an unseen reality; it is doorway to the vast limitless world of Spirit.  This is both a problem and what makes India so attractive.  It is a problem because a visitor will never mine the depths of the world’s number one spiritual superpower unless he or she is given the code to her apparently obscure, oftentimes bizaare and seeming irrational symbolism.  I have met hundreds of Westerners over the years who love India with a passion but who after many visits and even years of residence are still strangers to the culture they consider home.  Yes, they ‘feel’ something special here and they love the ‘vibes’ but exactly what these ‘vibes’ are they do not know.

In India everywhere you turn you are reminded of the big picture, the vast limitless spiritual world that pervades every atom of the visible.  When you meet a man named Shiva or a woman named Laxmi your mind is taken to the invisible dimension, to the realm of myth, the amazing world that personifies what will forever remain formless and nameless.  You enter the abode of the Gods and you know that you have come ‘home.’   Yes, their ‘big rigs,’ the goods lorries, are the lifeblood of commerce but they also serve as chariots of the Gods sporting names like Garuda Transport or Hanuman Trucking.  If you are Indian you know that Garuda, a massive golden eagle capable of supersonic flight, is the vehicle for the great god Vishnu, ‘the one who pervades everything.’  You know that Haunman, a huge monkey flew through the air carrying a whole mountain of herbs from the Himalayas to Sri Lanka to revive the simian army of Sri Ram, an avatara of Vishnu.  You take your laundry to the Shiva Shakti cleaners and hand it to Govinda and if you inquire into the root of his name you will discover that ‘the keeper of the light’ is now the keeper of your laundry.  An ochre clad holy man or garlanded cow with a sandalwood paste third eye wanders past and your mind cannot remain stuck in the cares of the day.  If you are Indian swimming in this sea of symbolism a wealth of positive unconscious associations spread through your being every day and the mind becomes settled and reassured.  But a Westerner will be easily become confused by the liberal display of arcane symbols.   As early European visitors to the Subcontinent did a century ago you may be inclined to deem the culture ‘primitive’ or ‘heathen’ or even ‘pagan.’  But you would be wrong.   

To understand the spiritual symbolism of India you need to go back several thousand years before the birth of Christ and consider the ideas that are enshrined in civilization’s oldest extant spiritual texts, the Vedas.  These seed ideas account for the exceptional longevity and vitality of Vedic culture.  What are they?  First, that the universe that we so easily take to be inert and insentient matter is actually limitless Consciousness, ‘Holy Spirit’ if you insist on a familiar term.  That it seems gross and material is attributable to the fact that we assume that it is as it appears to our senses.  Limitless Consciousness is known in India as the Self.[1]  Second, the beings in it are non-separate from it, and therefore, again contrary to appearances, not required to suffer, but, like it, enjoy limitless freedom.  And while this freedom is hidden from them, it can be rediscovered by understanding the Vedic teachings.  The word Veda means knowledge, the knowledge that sets one free.  The freedom that is our birthright is called moksha, liberation.  The consistent realization of this freedom by untold millions of souls over thousands of years accounts for the homogeneity and longevity of Vedic culture.

          Though too subtle for the man on the street to grasp, the Upanishadic teaching that we enjoy limitless freedom is a powerful idea that will never die because it fulfills the deepest need of human beings.  Even Vedanta, the teaching tradition that has preserved it all this time was never intended for mass consumption.  It managed to survive through a special educational system dedicated solely to the purpose of maintaining Vedic Dharma, the way of life that leads to freedom.  But as India became agrarian and urban the society began to turn its attention to less lofty pursuits causing interest in Vedic Dharma and moksha to decline.  So to keep the idea alive in the general population, the seer-poets whose luminous minds recorded the Vedas in moments of revelation came up with the Pauranas.    

          The Pauranas are called Dharma Shastras, scriptures on Dharma, the Eternal Way. The Pauranas serve two purposes: they provide an outlet for the religious needs of the population and simultaneously remind it of ultimate end of human life…freedom.  They also present the ‘science’ of Self knowledge, the means to attain freedom, in code.  The cryptic Vedic mantras, which require considerable dedication and brain power to decipher even when unfolded by a sage, were converted into action-packed stories, delightful cartoons appealing to a wide range of minds. The Pauranas are the sage’s ‘stealth’ technology because Upanishadic ideas about the nature of Reality are cleverly hidden behind the exciting, baroque and romantic facade of Pauranic myth. The confounding abundance of Gods and Goddesses that shock and bewilder India’s modern visitor are Pauranic deities. 

          The genius of the Puranas lies in the way they convert mundane experience and objects into symbols of the Self.  From a geographical and material point of view mount Kailas is just one of the many snowcapped peaks in the Himalayan range.  But because of the Pauranas it has become the Everest of mountains from the spiritual point of view.  Mountains are good Self symbols for several reasons.  They are relatively eternal.  The Self is eternal. They jut above everything else, affording an unsurpassed point of view.  The Self is the highest part of our being, jutting above the plains and valleys of our body/mind territory affording us unlimited vision.  They are unmoving like the non-dual Self which could only move were there something other than it to move into. They are silent like the Self, ‘the unstruck sound.’  

          Rivers too have been converted to Self symbols because they give life, nourishing everything with which they come in contact.  In fact the elements (air, fire, water, earth and space) are not only the Self in material form but, for the purposes of worship and contemplation, function as Self symbols, the meditation on which may open the door to the shining world of Self knowledge.  In South India five major temples are dedicated to the worship of the Self in the form of the five ‘great’ elements.  For example, there is a temple in Southern Andra Pradesh at a town named Kalahasthi that represents the air element.  Air, like water, is an appropriate Self symbol because we cannot live without it.  It is our ‘life’s breath.’   Like the Self it is formless and unseen and ‘moves in mysterious ways.’ 

Animals, plants and minerals represent spiritual truths. The elephant because of its keen intelligence and long memory has come to represent Vedic wisdom.  Gold, because of its great value and non-tarnishing quality and silver for its reflective ability are well-known Self symbols.  Colors too have symbolic meanings.  White, for its similarity to light, is an obvious Self symbol.  And black, because it is opposite white, usually symbolizes ignorance.  But black often symbolizes the Self because, as the Self encompasses everything within panoramic awareness, black includes all the colors of the spectrum.   Because the relatively infinite sky is blue, blue has come to symbolize the limitless Self.  Red typically symbolizes passion, in this case the Self as the passionate dancing energy, shakti, that creates the universe. 

          According to ancient Tamil sources Sri Kalahasti has been known as the ‘Kailas of the South’ for slightly more than two thousand years and the small river on whose banks it sits, the ‘Ganges of the South.’ Kailas is perhaps India’s most revered spiritual symbol.  It is the abode of Shiva, from whose head, according to legend, the Ganges is said to flow. Shiva, ‘that which is auspicious at all places, times and in all circumstances’ is a symbol of the Self and the Ganges flowing from his head represents the spiritualized or awakened mind.  A mind sourced in Spirit is a river of immeasurable power and life-giving goodness.  The claim that Kalahasti is the ‘Kailas of the South’ simply means that the small hill near the temple is to be taken as the spiritual equivalent of the Himalayan Kailas.  Likewise, the small river flowing in a northerly direction beside the temple is to be taken as the mighty Ganges.

Even the cardinal directions have assumed symbolic significance in Pauranic culture. Obviously context should be taken into account when divining the meaning of a symbol, but north, for example, is said to be the abode of the Self because from the immortal ‘northern’ position the Self looks out on the ‘southern’ world of time and death.  The idiom to “head south’ means to go downhill, to decay.  The God Dakshinamurthy whose name means ‘the one facing south’ and whose idol (murthy) is installed in the Kalahasti Temple, sits in the North and faces south.  East often represents the dawning of wisdom, the sun being another common Self symbol.  The symbolic use of direction culminates in the idea of building temples at the point on a river where its meandering points it back to its source.  The holiest city in India, Benaras, is built on a stretch of the Ganges that flows northward, the idea being that when the mind turns back toward its source, the God/Self, it realizes its innate divinity.  So, the small river on whose banks the Kalahasthi temple is situated is meant to remind us of the Ganges and the wealth of spiritual associations it conjures.

           The Vedas posit four ends for which human beings strive in their search for happiness: pleasure (kama), security or wealth (artha), duty (dharma) and freedom (moksha).  In the temple at Kalahasti these four universal motivations, which may take any worldly form, are, according to temple literature, converted into spiritual impulses.  They are represented by four deities facing in the four cardinal directions.  Shiva in the form of Dakshinamoorthy represents desire, in this case the desire for liberation, although he more commonly is said to represent the feeling of wealth (dakshina) that comes when you know who you really are.  At Kalahasti the Goddess Gnanaprasoonamba (the giver of knowledge or the mother of all knowledge) represents the ‘wealth’ i.e. freedom from limitation conferred by Self knowledge.  The deity Kalahastishwara (the lord of Kalahasti) faces west and symbolizes liberation.  Liberation, the death of ego upon the rediscovery of the Self, is the final stage of life just as setting is the sun’s last act before it disappears over the horizon.  Unfortunately the temple literature from which this information was gleaned neglected to include mention of the forth deity.  

          The most revered and universal symbol of the Self is the human form, ‘man cast in the image of God’ and its spiritual significance is difficult to overestimate.  Rather than conceive of us as tainted sinful human creatures, the Upanishad tells us that we are divine.  It says, “That which you worship there is this that you see here.”  The ineffable formless God/Self perceived by mystics is this whole world and everything in it.  While Hindu deities often sport dozens of arms and animal heads their essential forms are recognizably human.  Probably no other idea accounts for the astonishing fact that one billion people stuffed into a land mass one third the size of the United States undoubtedly handle their lives more confidently than their prosperous Western counterparts.       

          SriKalahasti got its name because in days of yore a spider (sri), serpent (kala) and elephant (hasti) elephant worshipped Shiva with great devotion.  A spider lived in the inner sanctum and worshipped the Lord by weaving elaborate temples and images of Shiva.  One day a breeze came up and caused the altar fire to destroy the spider’s offerings.  It became angry and was about to gulp down the flame, (realize the Self) endangering its (ego’s) life.  Appreciative of its devotion, Shiva appeared and granted the spider a boon.  The spider requested moksha, release from the cycle of births and deaths.  Accordingly it became one with Shiva, the Self. 

          A cobra worshipped Lord Shiva by offering rare gems, pearls and rubies that it brought from Nagaland, a mythical place where Nagas (serpents) dwell.  Serpents are one of India’s most visible symbols of the spiritual power of the Self.  The spiritual power of the Self, called Kundalini, the latent electricity of Consciousness, is hidden in the dark recesses of the unconscious like a snake hidden deep within the earth.  After the snake had worshipped, an elephant, fresh from its purifying bath in the nearby river, came to worship. In preparation it sprayed the altar with water from its trunk, scattering the gems.  It then proceeded to decorate the altar with leaves from a holy tree.  When the cobra returned it was angered to see its offerings disrespected and replaced by mere leaves.  So it replaced the leaves with gems. This charade repeated itself every day until the cobra became fed up and decided to punish whomever was destroying its offerings.  When the elephant returned to worship with its leaves the cobra slithered up its trunk and injected its venom.  In agony the elephant dashed its head on the stone altar in an attempt to kill the snake.  The snake fell out of the trunk and died from its wounds and the elephant succumbed to the poison.  Understanding that both had sacrificed their lives for the sake of their love of the Lord, Shiva resurrected them, gave them liberation and took them into his own body.  At the foot of the linga one can see a spider, two elephant tusks and a five-headed (the five elements) serpent to remind the devotee of these acts of supreme devotion.     

          The plethora of symbols that enhance temple culture not only point to the Self, they reveal the deep psychology of Vedic culture.  According to the Vedas human beings suffer, not because they are sinners, but because they have unwittingly separated themselves from their spiritual source, the Self.  Furthermore, they state that everyone, consciously or unconsciously, strives to rediscover this source of wholeness and peace.  Although there are many variations, one archetype illustrating this truth is divorce and remarriage.  In the Ramayana, perhaps the most popular Purana, Lord Rama’s (the Self) wife Sita (his loving peaceful mind) is deluded by a golden deer (the sense objects) and therefore abducted by a ravenous demon (the ego) who carries her off to a foreign country (a selfish materialistic ‘state’ of mind).  Rama sets off on a long and arduous journey (the spiritual path) to regain her.  Only with the help of an intelligent monkey (devotion) can he locate her.  He kills the demon with a whirling discus of light (the teaching “Tat Tvam Asi” which indicates the identity of the individual self and the Self) and reclaims his wife (attains enlightenment).

 

The Superstars

 

Two primary Self symbols vie for the hearts of Indian devotees, Shiva and Vishnu.  Shiva, whose name means “that which is good at all places and all times,” is personification of the Self, luminous Consciousness, the essence of everyone and everything.  Vishnu, ‘the one who pervades every atom of the universe’ is another personification of the formless Spirit.  As a deity Vishnu lives in Vaikuntha, a heavenly abode.  Scores of minor local and regional deities in addition to these superstars also function symbols of the Self. 

Vishnu is a peaceful, compassionate, intelligent deity because the Self is peace, intelligence and non-dual wisdom.  Non-dual wisdom is a synonym for compassion because a person who has it sees everything as his or her own self and will only express good will to itself in the form of apparent others.  Vishnu is a protector and savior of human beings and comes to their aid whenever the need arises.  By hearing his story, visiting his temple at Tirupathi and having his darshan it is said that the devotee attains liberation and avoids rebirth.  Since life in this changing world is fraught with insecurity, liberation is considered the highest goal of life. 

When there is a decline in righteousness in the world and living a holy life becomes difficult, Vishnu, the all-pervading Self, takes form and appears on earth to re-establish Dharma. The story of his incarnation begins when Narada, a celestial devotee of Vishnu and son of the Creator, Brahma, goes to his father and informs him that the earth is suffering a period of materialism and lawlessness.

Narada represents the enlightened mind, one that rests permanently in the Self.  His father said, “You will always be going around the universe.  There is nothing unknown to you.  Merely by thinking you can create a problem and solve it too.  I don’t need to teach you anything or do anything for you.  Do what is necessary to rectify the situation. I wish you all success.”

So Narada took leave of his father and went to earth chanting the name of Vishnu.  When he reached the Ganges banks he came upon a group of sages performing a sacrificial ritual, a Yagna, for the universal good. The Yagna was the fundamental spiritual practice of Vedic times. Sages, enlightened people, look out for the spiritual welfare of the world by worshipping the deities.  The deities are the positive spiritual forces in the total mind that keep individuals on the path of Dharma.  They are the link between the formless Self, the source of everything, and life on earth.  These gods ‘feed’ off the oblations offered into the sacrificial fires, meaning that the cosmos functions because of the principle of sacrifice, each part offering what it has for the good of the total.  For example, trees receive carbon dioxide from various sources and produce life giving oxygen that is useful to other life forms.  Human beings who hoard and accumulate things only for themselves disturb the sacrificial order of the cosmos, Dharma.  Dharma, the way everything is programmed to follow its divine nature, is based on the understanding that this is a non-dual reality.  Plants and animals automatically follow their dharma but human beings, because they have lost their connection to the Self and exercise free will can choose to contravene dharma, that is they can behave selfishly.  Selfish behavior disturbs the cosmic order.  To rectify this situation spiritual people (sages) make offerings for the good of the world.     

The ritual lasted many days and during a break Narada, who had a reputation for making trouble, asked the sages which of the Trimurtis[2] (the three main Gods: Brahma, Vishnu and Shiva) would receive the Yagna effect.[3]  His provocative question set them to thinking.  Each felt that the good karma of the Yagna should go to his personal deity and eventually the Yagna turned into a heated debate.     

When he saw that he had provoked them enough Narada suggested that Brighu, a great sage who had acquired exceptional powers from long and arduous penance, test the three gods to determine who was worthy of the Yagna benefits.  Not only was Brighu the most powerful sage, he possessed a gargantuan spiritual ego and Narada had in mind to give him an assignment that would cut him down to size.  

Flattered, Brighu left the Yagna and went to Satya Loka, the realm of Truth, where Brahma and his consort, Saraswati, the Divine Mother, were seated near their throne conversing with some celestial denizens.  Brighu strode haughtily into the room and sat on Brahma’s throne without acknowledging the Creator’s presence.  Brahma felt inclined to lecture Brighu and said, “A person who acquires such great power through yoga should also be humble and well-mannered.  But you think you are superior to everyone, including me, the Creator.  Who do you think you are? ”

Brighu got off the throne and thought, “Owing to an excess of Rajoguna[4] Brahma is exceptionally proud and does not deserve the Yagna effect.”  Before he strode off in a huff he said to Brahma.  “You, not me, are lacking in manners.  You made no attempt to understand why I had come but continued your conversation with these exalted celestials when I arrived.  Not only that, you had the temerity to rebuke me.  Therefore I curse you.   You will not have any temples on earth and will not be worshipped.”  (Because of this story there is only one temple dedicated to Brahma in all of India. Temples are as ubiquitous in India as supermarkets, gas stations and fast food joints are in America.)    

Next Brighu approached Kailas, the holy mountain where Lord Shiva lives. The whole Himalayan range echoed with the sound of Shiva’s disciples chanting his holy name.   At the time Shiva happened to be in his bedroom making love with his wife, the Divine Mother Parvati.  (lovemaking symbolizes the union of the two fundamental cosmic principles, spirit (pure Consciousness) and matter (energy).  Brighu strode proudly in without knocking.  Parvati covered herself and Shiva aimed his Trishool[5] at Brighu and said.  “You belong to the same race as the Creator.  You are a very learned and powerful man who knows the Vedas and has done extreme penance, yet you are completely lacking in manners. Leave immediately or I will destroy you.”

          Brighu was unbowed and said, “You may be a big god but you are the one lacking in manners.  You ignored me and continued to make love with your wife without even inquiring why I had come.  Now you point your Trishool at me and insult me.  Had you shown some culture, you might have been the recipient of the Yagna effect, but now you will receive my curse.  You will be worshipped on earth only in the form of a Linga and not in your real shape.”[6] 

          When Brighu arrived at Vaikunta he saw Vishnu reclining on the infinite coils of the cosmic serpent Sesha who was floating on an endless ocean of milk.  Vishnu was surrounded by worshipful gods and goddesses and his wife Laxmi, the goddess of wealth, was hidden in his heart.  Vishnu, who is omniscient, saw Brighu coming and divined his purpose but pretended to be unaware of the sage.  Remembering his treatment at the hands of Brahma and Shiva Brighu became furious, rushed up to Vishnu and kicked him violently in the chest, the abode of Laxmi.  

Vishnu, who is never perturbed, took the insult without batting an eye.  In fact he got up from his royal seat, took Brighu by the hand, led him to Sesha’s coils, sat him down and proceeded to massage his right foot which had sustained a terrible injury since it struck a huge jewel that he wore on his chest.  As he was massaging the foot he surreptitiously opened Brighu’s third eye which lay in his foot and said, “Oh, great and learned man, forgive my negligence.  I didn’t see you.  This injury you received is due to me.  But we need not worry as it is part of the divine plan and we are only instruments.”

This incident is rife with many layers of symbolism.  The Ocean of milk symbolizes the Divine Mind; the cosmic snake with infinite coils the infinite spiritual potential of the cosmos.  Vishnu represents the Self.  In this story he stands for sattva, the mind that is calm and peaceful, the mind that knows the truth, one that does not react to events.  The wound Brighu receives as karmic retribution for his arrogant behavior softens him up so he can hear the truth.  The opening of his ‘third eye’ means that Vishnu gave Brighu Self knowledge.  Self knowledge is the only cure for egoism.  The ‘right’ foot symbolizes the humility that comes from living a righteous life.  Brighu was ready for Self knowledge owing to his long and arduous spiritual work.  The only obstacle to his enlightenment was his ego, which Vishnu deflated by his compassionate non-attachment.  When the mind is pure, sattvic, it is dispassionate, non-reactive.  Brighu, by his aggression, expected Vishnu to react, but when he did not, Brighu became aware of his own anger and was forced to let it go, setting himself up for the opening of his third eye which was accomplished by the Upanishadic teaching, “Tat tvam asi” a Sanskrit  statement indicating one’s  identity with the Self. 

          Brighu realized that Vishnu, an embodiment of Sattvaguna,[7] was the only god qualified to receive the blessings of the sacrifice, so he returned to the Ganges and informed the sages who were very happy.  The Yagna continued for forty days and on the last day Vishnu appeared to receive its effects.  He then returned to his heavenly abode.

          He arrived to find his wife Laxmi in a terrible state.  She had taken Brighu’s kick as an insult and was furious that her husband had treated the proud sage with such kindness.  She said, “You are the head of the whole cosmos, you command the respect of millions of gods and billions of creatures, yet you loved and served that vain Marharshi who dared to kick you in the chest where I live.[8]  I cannot tolerate your behavior.” 

          “Calm down, my dear,” said Vishnu.  “Don’t you realize that Brighu is my devotee and it is my duty to save devotees?  Will parents get angry and punish their children when they are kicked?[9]  He came here with a purpose, not to dishonor me.  His actions were part of the divine plan.  Why worry about it?”

          “Since you are the intelligence that runs the entire cosmos, you are exceptionally clever at justifying your actions, but I will not swallow your lame arguments.  I am leaving you once and for all.  And I will not leave that arrogant Brahmin unpunished!” 

          So she cursed that the entire Brahmin community would be deprived of wealth and would only subsist by selling their knowledge.[10]  She then prostrated to her husband and went to a lonely place on earth where she sat in meditation.

          When Laxmi left Heaven lost its festive appearance.  Because she was the goddess of wealth all the money went with her and the citizens began to suffer poverty.  They did not enjoy their new status so they went to Vishnu and requested him to persuade his wife to return.  Feeling their distress he went to earth in search of his beloved.  Tired and exhausted after searching many days he eventually arrived at the Tirupathi hills and took shelter in an ant hill under a tamarind tree where he sat in meditation praying for the return of his wife.[11]

          When Narada heard that Laxmi had left Vaikunta he went to Brahma, his father, and explained that Vishnu was living in an anthill on earth, wasting away to a shadow of his former self, pining away for his wife.  Brahma told Narada to visit Laxmi and he himself went to Kailas to confer with Shiva.  Shiva and Brahma agreed to take the shapes of a cow and calf, appear on earth and feed Vishnu with milk.[12] 

          When Narada told Laxmi, who was meditating on earth like an ordinary woman, about her husband’s condition she burst into tears.  To console her Narada said, “When you were with him all the time he seemed quite indifferent.  Now that you have left him he thinks of you night and day. This is how fate works.  You must work out a way to feed him.”[13]

She was very distressed and prayed to Brahma and Shiva who appeared in front of her as a cow and calf.[14]  She immediately took the form of a cowherd woman and led the cow and calf, which were exceptionally beautiful, to the palace of the king and queen.  They were attracted by the animals and purchased them to feed their child, believing that such a cow would give exceptional milk. 

          They turned the care of the animals over to a cowherd boy who took them out to graze during the day.  However, when he milked the cow in the evening he discovered that her udders were completely empty.  The King and Queen grew suspicious, thinking the cowherd was selling the milk and threatened him with dire consequences if the cow did not deliver.

          The cowherd watched the cow carefully the next day and noticed that it stealthily separated itself from the herd.  He followed it to the anthill where he witnessed it emptying its udders through one of the holes.[15]  He became so angry that he raised an axe to kill the cow but Vishnu, seeing that the cow was in danger, leapt out of the anthill just in time to receive the blow on his divine head.  He fell down, blood gushing from his wound.  Seeing the Lord lying in a pool of blood caused the cowherd to faint.  The blood-spattered cow ran to the palace and began lowing with such force that the king and his army came out to see what was causing the commotion.  The cow made gestures that caused the king to think that it wanted to show him something and he followed it with his army to the anthill when he saw the cowherd lying unconscious and the Lord in a pool of blood.   “Who are you,” said the king, understanding that this injured man was no ordinary mortal.[16]

          “You want to know who I am?” said the Lord coming out his coma.  Saying “See me now!” he showed the king his infinite cosmic form.  Then he said to the king, “Because you are responsible for your subjects I hold you responsible for this wound.[17]  I curse you to become a hungry ghost.” 

The king was distressed and begged the Lord to withdraw the curse. 
          “I cannot withdraw the curse,” the Lord said, but after this birth you will be reborn and have a daughter named Padmavati whom you will present, along with a ruby-studded crown, to me in marriage.  Then you will attain liberation.”[18]  

The Lord then began to search the woods for a medicine that would heal his wound and came to the palace of Varaswamy, the Divine Boar[19] who knew Vishnu’s story through his mental eye.  Varaswamy, who was also an incarnation of Vishnu in a previous Yuga, attained fame by diving deep into the infinite cosmic ocean to retrieve the earth that had been rolled up in a blanket[20] by a huge demon and hidden there.  Vishnu worshipped Varaswamy and requested some land on which to live.  Varaswamy said he would sell him some land but Vishnu said that since his wife Laxmi had deserted him he was too poor to purchase it.  But he told Varaswamy that if he got the land he would make the devotees that came to see him worship Varaswamy first.  Varaswami agreed.  To this day pilgrims worship at Varaswamy’s shine before taking the darshan[21] of Venkateshwara.  

 Vishnu was eventually taken in by a motherly forest dwelling devotee, Vakula Devi, from his previous incarnation who treated his wound and tended to his needs.  He soon recovered and came to enjoy his life in the Tirupathi forest.  One day, dressed as a hunter, took his bow and arrow and went into the forest.  When he raised his bow and shot an arrow it made a thundering noise and all the wild animals scattered in fear.  As they ran he aimed his sharp arrows and killed many.  He heard a large haughty elephant trumpeting loudly.  He chased the beast but was unable to keep up with it.  Just when it seemed as if the elephant would escape he prayed to Brahma and a white horse appeared.  He mounted the horse and gave chase.  After some time the elephant stopped, saluted Vishnu and disappeared.  This made the Lord happy and he decided to stop hunting dumb animals.  He entered a lovely garden nearby where he found a beautiful lake with clear water from which he drank.  After drinking he fell into a wonderful sleep. 

In the vignette above hunting wild beasts with a bow and arrow symbolizes meditation for the purpose of purification of the mind.  The wild beasts represent the wild animal impulses that disturb the mind.  The bow represents the mind at meditation and the sharp arrows the mantras or teachings that the meditator uses to neutralize the thoughts and feelings that disturb the mind.  Here the forest represents an uncontrolled mind.  The haughty elephant is the ego which can not be killed or tamed without the help of the Brahma, the Self.  Brahma means limitless.  The knowledge that one is limitless causes the ego to surrender.  Once the ego has acknowledged the Self a state of peace ensues.  Gardens, places of beauty and rest, are Self symbols.  Drinking clear water symbolizes enlightenment, receiving the knowledge of one’s limitless nature and the wonderful sleep is known as Yoga Nidra, the Sleep of Yoga.  Sleep is a reasonable Self symbol because one experiences limitlessness, albeit without consciousness.  Yoga means to join or yoke and represents a pure mind that has joined itself through understanding with the Self.  Such a mind ‘sleeps’ i.e. rests.

As he rested in the garden a melodious song attracted his attention and when he opened his eyes he saw Padmavati approaching.  She was so beautiful he fell in love immediately.   He got up and politely asked her name and her parentage.  Since he was only a rustic and she a great princess she did not speak to him directly but directed her handmaidens to inquire about him.  He said he was from Tirupathi and had come upon her garden accidentally while hunting.  She then spoke to him directly and said that he was in a private garden and that were her father to find him there he would be punished.

Vishnu said, “I am sorry but I have no mind to leave you. God has given you this birth for my sake.  Since I love you dearly, please marry me.”

Padmavati could not believe her ears.  She angrily said, “You obviously have no idea who I am.  Do you think a princess would marry a hunter?  If you value your life you will leave at once.”

Vishnu smiled and said, “Your rebuke is normal but you are mistaken.  We are destined for each other.  Status is no obstacle where there is love.  I admire your beauty.  You will marry me.”  He moved closer to her. 

Padmavati felt it would be dangerous to remain and instructed her retinue to chase the rustic from the garden.  They threw large stones at the Lord and one even killed his horse.  Badly injured, the Lord sorrowfully left the garden and returned home with a heavy heart.  When he told Vakula Devi what had happened she said it was a mistake thinking a commoner could marry a princess.     

 To explain the situation Vishnu said, “In the last Yuga I was born as Rama.

 To keep my father’s word I was exiled in a forest for fourteen years.  Ravana had plans to abduct my wife, Sita, but Agni, the fire God, came to know of his plans and substituted Vedavati for Sita.   I killed Ravana and Sita threw herself in the fire to prove that she was chaste.  Agni, Vedavati and Sita appeared in the flames and Agni requested me to marry Vedavati.  Although she was my wife Sita agreed.  But since I was observing the vows of celibacy I promised Vedavati that I would marry her in this the Kali Yuga.  Akasha Raju’s daughter Padmavati is Vedavati in this incarnation.  Don’t you think I should keep my promise?”   

          When Padmavati returned to the palace she discovered that she could not keep the beautiful form of the hunter out of her mind and eventually realized that she loved him.  Still, she knew that her parents would never agree to such a marriage.  She lost interest in food and her daily routine and took to her bed where she slowly wasted away pining for the hunter.  Her distraught parents tried every known remedy to no avail. 

          Vishnu was also disturbed and realized that his mistake was not showing her his real form so he dressed himself as a female fortune teller, took the name Singi and stood in front of the queen’s balcony.  When the queen came out she thought that the fortuneteller might reveal what was troubling her daughter and agreed to compensate her handsomely if she could. 

Singi sat Padmavati down in front of her basket and prayed to the gods.  Then she said, “I will now tell you what is in your mind.  The dark-skinned hunter you met in your garden has stolen your heart.  See here on your hand, a strong matrimonial line is running this way across your palm.  Your desire will be fulfilled before long.  Now look into my basket.”  When Padmavati looked she saw Vishnu, bent her head in shyness and ran smiling into her apartment. 

The fortuneteller’s words worried her mother, however and she told her husband who was also concerned.  As they were discussing the problem Padmavati came and respectfully told her parents that even if the sun and moon fell out of the sky she would marry the hunter.  Seeing that her mind was fixed the parents could do nothing.[22] 

A few days later Vakula Devi dressed as a renunciate came to see the king and queen.  She told them that her ‘son’ who has the power to rule the three worlds loved her daughter.  She said that although he had lost his wealth he was from a good family and that if they agreed to the marriage they would attain fame and liberation.  They liked the idea but could not give their word until they consulted their guru, Suka Maharshi.  The Maharshi[23] said that their prospective son in law was none other than Vishnu, the lord of the three worlds, and that the whole human race would benefit if they accepted the proposal.  They immediately drafted a marriage proposal and presented it to the Lord who gladly accepted it.

The marriage caused Vishnu a big problem because he was a pauper since his wife deserted him.  As he was thinking about the problem Narada appeared and suggested that he take a loan from Kubera, the cosmic treasurer.  Kubera agreed.  Vishnu promised to pay interest until the end of the Kali Yuga and return the principal immediately thereafter. 

The wedding was a festive affair attended by beings from all the fourteen worlds, subtle and gross.  When it was over the bride and bridegroom spent six months in the ashram of the sage Agasthya enjoying the beauty of the Tirupathi hills.  The Lord so enjoyed himself that he decided to reside there until the end of the Kali Yuga.  To that end he asked two kings to build him a temple on the hill above Tirupathi at a place now called Tirumala.[24]  At the inauguration of the temple the Lord entered and lit two lamps that will burn until the end of the present Yuga. 

While all these events were taking place Laxmi was still deep in meditation at Kolhapur, unaware of what was happening and the whereabouts of her husband.  She saw Narada walking by chanting the name of Vishnu and called him over.  After expressing her concern about her husband’s fate Narada said, “Why worry?  He is quite happy with his new wife, Padmavati.  Isn’t it strange that he married a new woman without your knowledge?”

The news so upset her that she rushed to Tirupathi and confronted Vishnu and his new bride.  The women immediately began quarreling.  Vishnu couldn’t stand the racket, silently stepped back and converted himself into a stone idol.  Realizing they had lost their beloved the women began to weep.[25] 

The idol said, “Laxmi, Padmavati belongs to the same caste as you.  In the last Yuga I was incarnated as Rama.  During that time Agni got wind of Ravana’s plan to abduct my wife Sita and substituted Vedavati for Sita.  Vedavati was reborn as Padmavati.  She suffered greatly at the hands of that demon.  Because I was observing celibacy in that Yuga I gave her my word that I would marry her in the Kali Yuga. When she understood the reason Laxmi embraced Padmavati and apologized for her intemperate comments.  Padmavati also asked for Laxmi’s forgiveness.

Then Vishnu said to Laxmi. “I have borrowed a lot of money from the cosmic treasurer for my wedding and am deeply in debt.  I don’t like this situation and am always thinking how to pay the steep rate of interest.  I request that you give my devotees very much wealth so they will be tempted to sin more and pray to me for relief.  I will appear in dreams and visions and advise them to fill my coffers in the form of offerings to facilitate the fulfillment of their vows.”[26]

Laxmi agreed.

Then he said, “My chest, which was polluted when Brighu kicked me has since been purified through all the trials and tribulations I have gone through while on earth looking for you.  You may therefore occupy your original place.[27]  Laxmi was pleased with the Lord’s words and occupied her place on the right side of his chest while Padmavati occupied the place on the left. 

Vakula Devi came looking for Vishnu and was distraught when she saw him standing as an idol.[28]  But the idol said, “Mother, I am blessing you with liberation.  You may now adorn my neck in the form of a Tulasi garland.”  She immediately transformed into a garland and went around the Lord’s neck.

The symbolism of the descent of Vishnu and his installation as the diety at Triupathi is profound and complex.  The following is a brief summary.  When when the sage Brighu (the spiritual ego) kicks the God Vishnu, (the Self), in the chest (Heart) where his wife the Divine Mother Laxmi, the Goddess of wealth (read love or wisdom) lives.  Angered by this blow she leaves heaven (the state of union with God) and goes to earth (the place where people suffer owing to lack of Self love) where she undertakes rigorous penance (meditation) to regain her peace of mind.  The Self is not happy without love so Vishnu comes down to earth to find his wife.  Unlike the Biblical variant, which condemns the divine couple and their offspring to endless suffering, the Vedic Adam and Eve are reunited after a series of trials and tribulations. 

           

The Gods as Experiential Entities

 

The purpose of the Upanishads is to awaken the mind to Reality, the Self.  In the Mandukya Upanishad, one of the ‘major’ Upanishads, a discussion of the Self and its relationship to the waking, dream and deep sleep states of consciousness is undertaken.  It states that with reference to the Self, which it defines as Reality, the other three states are ‘unreal.’  The definition of Reality in Vedic science is ‘that which endures before, during, and after time and that which illumines and transcends the waking, dream, and deep sleep states.’  Because something is unreal does not mean that it cannot be experienced.  A mirage, for example, is experienced as water even though it doesn’t exist as water.  Our three ‘normal’ states of consciousness are experientially ‘real’ but have no lasting reality because they are caught in the web of time, continually dissolving and recreating themselves.  

Scientific Materialism, the dominant thought system in the West, only accepts sense information as valid knowledge and therefore defines reality in terms of waking state experience.  And conversely, it dismisses as unreal experiences that belong to the dream state, the mind, although with the advent of psychology, which is lobbying to become a science, this view is under attack.   

Is subjective experience unreal?  From the scientific materialist point of view, yes.  And by the Upanishadic definition, yes.  But if we use the Upanishadic definition, the waking state is as unreal as the dream state.  Or, to express it differently, assuming ignorance of the Self, the ‘normal’ state of mind, the dream state, is as real as the waking state.  Considering this, it is not surprising that the Indian mind views subjective phenomena as at least as real, probably more, than waking state events.  Dismissing subjective experience as unreal creates a serious problem because, although the body does not function in the dream state, the mind functions in the waking state.  Therefore, waking state experience is an amalgam of sense perceptions and subjective activity: emotions, feelings, beliefs, ideas, memories, dreams, visions, judgments, discriminations, etc.  If anything, inner experience is more valuable, much more ‘us’ than anything that happens in ‘reality’ outside.  Because how we see and feel about things conditions how we react to each other our feelings and thoughts need be understood and accepted, not dismissed as unreal.  

Temple worship in India is not just about intellectually divining the meaning of the plethora of Self symbols one finds enshrined there or understanding profound Upanishadic ideas as they out picture in stone and ritual but of experiencing the Self through Self symbols.  Just as people attend sporting matches or their local pubs to experience a different state of mind, the temple experience transforms the mundane mind into a devotional mind by giving it ‘darshan,’ a vision of the Self through the deities enshrined there. 

How does this ineffable, apparently untouchable, formless Reality become so easily available for experience?  Because it is ongoing in the Heart of everyone.  And how does a given temple deity awaken one to it?  

One of the most touching temple experiences is a mother teaching a toddler to prostrate in front of a deity.  The child does not understand what it is doing but accommodates the mother out of duty or love or for reasons known only to it.  Nonetheless the prostration does not change its state of mind.  But slowly, over time, as its mind develops, it becomes aware of the mother’s devotional feelings and the devotional atmosphere in the temple and gains the devotional experience by osmosis.  And since this experience occurred in a temple in the presence of a deity or at home in the puja (worship) room, it associates the experience with the ritual of worship and the symbol on the altar.  When this state of mind is established subconsciously any familiar symbol can awaken it.  And because it feels so good, the act of worship is repeated over and over, deepening the feeling of love.

How does this work?  Obviously, since the Self pervades every atom of the universe and every thought and feeling in our minds, we need not run to the temple to experience it.  In fact everyone has unconsciously developed devotional habits and worships deities of their own making: nature, a film star, a guru, money…you name it.  And whether our deities are sacred or secular, the mechanism of devotion is universal.

Deities work because the Self, our own Consciousness, knows what we need even when we don’t.  “The light knoweth the darkness but the darkness knoweth not the light.”  When a devotee approaches a deity he or she typically wants something, the solution to a problem, for instance.  When approaching someone who has something we want we assume a humble anticipatory state of mind.  And when we lay out our problem the mind is free of them…at least temporarily.  And in that problem free moment the peace and bliss of the Self floods into the mind/heart.  We assume that this feeling of peace and bliss comes from some unknown source or the deity in front of us but in reality the deity was only a catalyst, unlocking the door to the Self.  When I feel good problems tend to no longer be problems.  Additionally, when I feel good the people who can solve my problem are often attracted to me and may feel inclined to help me solve them.

The temple and its deities need not be used exclusively to remove obstacles.  They may be used to express appreciation of God, the Self.  Contrary to what a Westerner might imagine, many in India feel grateful for who they are and what (little) they have and use the temple to express their gratitude.  When this attitude is enshrined in the mind, even a little seems like a lot.  Consequently, India’s temple complexes, with few exceptions, are charged fields of devotional energy. 

To enjoy this energy, leave your mental and emotional baggage behind.  Several rituals remind the devotee that he or she is entering sacred space.  The most common involves discarding ones footwear outside the temple.  At some temples it is customary to remove one’s hair which is thought to be a symbol of ego.  It is very common to touch the threshold when entering the temple to show respect for the Lord. 

Invariably the first deity one confronts at the temple entrance is the elephant God Ganesh, the remover of obstacles. One should ask that all obstacles to a successful experience of the Lord, the Self, be removed before beginning the symbolic journey to the inner sanctum where one comes face to face with the deity, one’s own inner Self.

 

Tiruvannamalai

 

The temple at Tiruvannamalai, dedicated to the fire element, represents the temple as spiritual journey, a movement from change to the changeless, the passage from time to the timeless.  The temple is a haven of peace in the midst of the chaos and frantic motion of the typically Indian town, a place where one can journey into the Self.

The spiritual journey is a movement through five layers or levels of ones being.  These five layers are described in the Upanishad as (1) the food sheath, the physical body, (2) the breath or vital air sheath, our physiological processes, (3) the emotional body, our sensate, feeling nature, (4) the mind or intellect sheath, and (5) the bliss sheath.  Passing through these, transcending them, one arrives at the inner sanctum, the Self.   At the entrance to each of the temple’s five levels one finds a large black stone cow contentedly staring toward the inner sanctum.  This cow, Nandi (bliss) represents a clear, purified devotional mind turned inward and worshipping the Self.  The fire temple is situated on the slope of the Holy mountain Arunachala with the lingam closest to the summit suggesting an ascent from the lower to the higher, from time to timelessness, from Self ignorance to Self knowledge.  

South Indian temples are typically surrounded by very high square or rectangular stone walls that form a protective barrier around the deity just as the human body, for which they are a symbol, surrounds and protects the Self within.[29]  Access to the temple is gained through four gopurams, gates, which tower above city and are noticeable from great distances, calling the devotee to worship.  The word gopuram means ‘city of light” because they are usually adorned with sculptures of hundreds of Pauranic deities.  The deities or Gods represent the luminous Self taking form and shining in the mind.   The four gopurams represent the four elements, gateways to the Self.[30]  The elements are ‘gateways’ because we cannot journey into the Self until we have understood the nature of the world in which we live.  

Important as it is, the fire temple at Tiruvannamalai is overpowered by the holy mountain Arunachala, one of India’s most revered spiritual symbols.  As noted above, mountains are Self symbols for several reasons.  Apart from that, however, the word ‘arunachala’ tells us all we need to know.   ‘Aruna’ means dawn or light and ‘achala’ is a compound.  ‘Chala’ means moving or changing and ‘a’ is a negative.  So the word means ‘the unchanging light.’  The Self is the unchanging light that illumines everything, including the light of the sun.

The temple at Tiruvannamalai is called Arunachalishwara, (the Lord of the Unchanging Light).  The Self is often referred to as “the fire of Consciousness.”  Fire is an appropriate Self symbol because it produces light and light illumines objects just as the Self illumines our minds and, through the senses, the world around us.  At every shrine leading to the inner sanctum, and indeed at many seemingly unlikely places throughout any temple, small oil and camphor fires burn.  When a devotee feels the need to worship, he or she will contribute his or her camphor to the fire to keep the fire alive.  On full moon nights, when upwards of one million devotees circumambulate Arunachala, one can witness large fires at significant places on the path around which scores of devotees are clustered in devotional fervor  “taking the light.”  Taking the light is a beautiful ritual indicating the desire to receive blessings from the Self/Mountain.  The devotee offers his or her heart, symbolized by the white wafer, into the fire, the Self.  With each contribution the ‘Self’ fire blazes and the devotee bends (surrenders) to ‘receive the light,’ by symbolically scooping up the fire in his or her hands and washing his or her face with it.  In its deepest sense the ritual acknowledges the simple truth that our intelligence, our lives, are not separate from the one fiery Intelligence illumining the whole cosmos. This intelligence or “fire’ not only illumines our bodies and minds but has taken form as the elemental world and is, therefore, to be honored .  Accordingly the temple at Tiruvannamalai has been designated the ‘fire’ temple.     

The story behind the mountain told in the Shiva Purana is exceptionally mystical and is undoubtedly responsible for its enduring fame.  Long before human beings appeared on the face of the earth, Brahma, the four-headed Creator, was flying through the transcendental skies on his swan when he came to Vaikuntha, the heavenly abode of Vishnu.  Vishnu, attended by millions of Gods and Goddesses, his eyes half open, was lying blissfully on the endless coils of the serpent Sesha who was floating in an infinite ocean of milk.  

Brahma was annoyed when Vishnu did not open his eyes and acknowledge his presence so he said, “Who do you think you are that you can afford not to pay homage to the Creator of everything?  Without me you would not even exist.” 

Vishnu, irritated that his sleep of yoga had been disturbed, replied, “I think you are slightly confused.  Perhaps you did not notice this lotus growing out of my Divine navel.  If you look closely you will see a small God with four faces suspiciously similar to yours sitting in the middle.  The fact, my dear friend, is that only I am Self created and you are merely in charge of the creation of the universe. You are little more than one of my executives, albeit an important one.” 

“What rubbish,” said Brahma, “this lotus with me sitting on it is just the product of your yoga maya, as unreal as a hare’s horn.”

The argument became increasingly heated and the Gods witnessing it were concerned for the welfare of the world should they actually come to blows, so Indra, king of the Gods,[31] suggested that they consult Shiva, who he assured them would resolve the issue. 

So they all journeyed to Kailas, the abode of Shiva, who agreed to settle the dispute. 

“See here,” he said, casting down a blinding blazing column of white light that stretched upwards and downwards as far as the eye could see, “whoever can find the end of this column is indeed the greatest.”

Brahma, certain that he would easily reach the end, assumed the form of a swan and began to ascend the column.  But it proved to be much taller than he thought.  In fact he became slightly discouraged after flying at supersonic speed for several thousand eons with still no end in sight.  Just as he was becoming tired and considered abandoning his search he encountered a lovely flower emitting an intoxicating perfume falling slowly down the column. 

He flew over and the flower said to him, “I am the Kartigai flower falling from the head of Shiva.  I have been falling for infinite aeons and will never reach the bottom.  You cannot reach the top.   Go back and tell Shiva that you have reached the summit.  I will back you up.  Even falsehood is recommended in times of distress.” 

This idea appealed to Brahma who flew leisurely back down the column accompanied by the Kartigai flower. 

In the meantime, Vishnu, who had assumed the form of boar and had begun digging down the column, also became discouraged after many aeons and decided to give up his quest.  He turned around and began ascending, arriving back in Kailas at the same time as Brahma.  Both stood in awe in front of the wonderful flaming form of Shiva.

“How did it go,” Shiva addressed the Gods? 

Vishnu replied, “Great indeed you are!  I bow to you, Shiva, whose glory can never be measured.  I bored for aeons and aeons and was unable to find the end of this blazing column of light. ”

Shiva turned to Brahma who said, “Unlike this inept fellow, I found the end.  It’s true, this is an impressive column of light and I had to fly rather fast to reach the end, but it was really no big deal for a creative energetic person like me.” 

The Kartigai flower nodded in assent.

Shiva smiled inwardly and transformed himself into a gigantic terrifying monster that reached down and caught Brahma by the neck.

“You lie,” he thundered.  “And for this lie I am going to remove all four of your arrogant heads.  You’re finished!” 

Fearing for the world should the Creator be destroyed, the Gods and Goddesses fell at the feet of the monster and pleaded for mercy.  Shiva, the fount of all compassion, returned to this true form, recanted and released Brahma to a sigh of relief from the deities.

“It is not right to lie to make yourself look good,” said Shiva.  “Perhaps I was a bit hasty in my wrath.  Death is a punishment that does not fit the crime.  However you should not go scot-free.  Therefore, I decree that henceforth you will not be worshipped in any temples on earth.   Nonetheless, I can see that you are contrite so I also decree that even though a sacrifice is completed according to the scrip