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A Big Bird’s Nest of Thoughts
Susan: Hi, Ram. I thought I would just touch base. Sundari has been weaving her magic and I imbibe all with speed, then leisure and gratitude.
She really makes me aware. For me, it is more about seeing the unhelpful ignorance that is operating in this seeming person… and also learning to parrot your book.
Ram: Yes, learn the logic of the teaching, Susan. Become a Ramji clone. ☺ Seeing ignorance, understanding what it is, is all that is required. It will go when it is recognized.
Susan: The energy actually is getting better.
Ram: It is good to know that the energy is getting better. Slowly you will calm down.
Susan: Last night I dreamed a dream. It feels like a song. All my credit cards and money were stolen from my purse whilst I was travelling on a train. I wasn’t too worried. Then a big football crowd was playing outside of a house where I used to live. Ted joined the crowd but I stayed and observed from above. I can have a few guesses about the purse part. If you think it is necessary and have the time could you please tell me what you think re the purse.
Ram: It means that your are losing your sense of insecurity because self-knowledge is working in you. The purse represents security, emotional, financial – any kind of security. It is going because you do not need security anymore. You are security itself. You seem to have understood this at some deep level, and the letting go is happening on the causal level. It will take time for the tangled bird’s nest of thoughts and feelings to unravel but it will happen.
The big football crowd is the many thoughts that crowd your mind – the rajas.
Because the knowledge is working (“I stayed and observed from above”) you will be letting go of the familiar things that you were attached to as time passes. It seems Ted is one of them. I think your relationship with him will improve. It is a very good dream, spiritually.
As you say below, “I have always been there.” It means you know who you are. And the knowledge also shows in the statement “the thunder clouds just have to continue rolling out of the way.” If they are rolling away it means the knowledge is loosening the hold of the vasanas.
Susan: I don’t want to carry on too much but you know I really love you and Sundari. I deliberately didn’t buy your photo because I didn’t want to worship you, but the inexpressible expression that I feel for you both is deep and present and as though emerging. And yet, in writing this, I know I have always been here, the thunder clouds just have to continue rolling out of the way.
Ram: About the photo, you can’t worship us because we are not available for worship. We are just symbols of your desire to be free. Sometimes people like to have symbols in their environment that remind them of who they are and what they want. The symbol invokes bhakti for the self. You don’t need such things because that deep and inexpressible feeling you have for us is a deep and inexpressible love for you. We are you and you are us.
~ Love, Ram and Sundari