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A Bright Stream of Being
Lynda: Dear James, I am very happy with your answer.
Yes, it is true that I remain stuck in my idea of myself as a limited self because it is what I know. I hold it up to the light of knowledge because it permeates my limits and sets me free. If there is doing, what else is there to do except know who I am because my true nature will work without me to make me know?
I finally realized God’s proximity and bright intelligence around my mind, which is not polluted anymore by my projections of smallness and authority. It is between me and Him now.
You made me realize the core of all misbeliefs, seeing everyone as a project to be improved by me. How vain I have been! It caused all kinds of subconscious entanglements that kept me bound to it. It was a total projection: the problem was me, but I thought it was other people. I was the problem, not the solution like I thought.
Now I understand, thanks to you.
Also from your emails I realized that I was trying to free myself by my own system of thinking and that it would never work, because I was the problem all along and my system of thinking stemmed from that dysfunction. Now I can let go of the responsibility of trying to fix myself. It leaves me in a state of self-realization.
I am happy for it. The “I am” thought is a bright stream of being. It gives rise to seeing, and I am beginning to dissolve in the seeing. It is all that is required.
Tonight I had a dream that the I, a needle of light, is the body of a butterfly. All I can do is spread my wings and the grace of God will be the wind in these wings to take me as He likes and thinks it is good for me.
Also, the bright “I” was like a key in the door that opens into immensity.
I know I am being guided and the same consciousness guided you to unlink yourself from teaching me. I am very grateful for that. Which teacher would ever do that, give up the opportunity to “help me out”? And that in itself is such a lesson for me not to be eager to help, because the real help is always from consciousness itself.
I wish you all the best. I hope a lot of people will get to know your work and benefit from it.
I, for myself, am very happy to have access to all your videos and satsangs. It is such a cool paradox that the impersonality of Vedanta made you into such a clear, transparent, stable and firm and “finished” person, also sweet and funny.
~ All the best, Lynda