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How to Get out of the Loop
Terrance: Again, thank you, Ram. I hope your trip to India goes smoothly. I appreciate that you take the time to respond to my questions, and I do not wish to be a burden.
James: Sorry for the delay replying, but I have just shifted from England to India (I’m in Chennai right now and off to Tiruvannamalai tomorrow) and just taking care of the material plane – the body, etc. – is a challenge.
Terrance: I am feeling in a sort of a loop (a recent posted satsang used that word). Sometimes I feel that I know (or more precisely, “I know that I know” or even just “I just know”). I am the container or conduit of experiences that wash by, I am untouched by the experiences, the unbroken whole, “sthiti,” solid, motionless, steady, without stain, ordinary awareness, without problems because there is nothing that a problem can stick to. I can remember that I had questions and doubts and problems, but I can’t really imagine those doubts now. Doing so would be like trying to imagine what it was like to see a clock before I could tell time.
James: Very cool metaphor, Terrance.
Terrance: The other half of the loop is that I remember that I used to know, that it was obvious and self-evident that I am unstained and sustainable, but now that knowledge is far away. I am at a checkpoint and cannot produce my driver’s license.
James: Such is the nature of the mind. It knows but it doesn’t know. If you keep with your practice eventually the downside of the loop will be eliminated.
Terrance: So I have seen a few of these loops now come and go. I think I know the answer:
(1) Find sattva and the knowledge will re-appear, (2) simplify, (3) reduce transactions, (4) look at my reactions to things to find the reactor, (5) do karma yoga, action, cheerfully, (6) see and appreciate what is good right now, (7) don’t try so hard for results, (8) have faith in the teachings and the process.
James: Great checklist, Terrance.
Terrance: There is a little less vertigo in this loop and a little less desperation to get “back” when I find myself at the checkpoint with my pockets pulled out and the angry guards hassling me. So I guess it’s all working. ☺
James: It’s working just fine, Terrance. Spirituality is evolutionary. You will have breakthroughs and setbacks (going down on the way up), but the steady application of a dedicated mind is all that is required.
~ Love, James