Martina: Dear Ramji, the book is great, but it takes time. It is so full, I need to advance slowly. I think the biggest question I have is, am I up to it? Or is it for me to decide? And at the same time the answer is yes to this path, or “means.” It’s the answer I have been looking and not found elsewhere. And coming across this knowledge and not pursuing it would be stupidity.

I have been “not wanting” the last few years, but at times it seems I am weak and lose interest in liberation and don’t work on myself, as so many seem to do. It seems that life for living beings is just chaotic and the only real solution is enlightenment. But until then, how to live your life? You can try to not be the doer, but does it help if one in the end is not enlightened?

I have made some notes, but I think I will read it, then reread it and maybe reread it again, then get back to you with questions. Anyway, it’s amazing and inspiring, and all I would like to do is to read it. The best would be hearing you telling it. But I’m off tomorrow morning, living without the internet for the next two months.

I hope to see you in October or in India, yes. I actually I thought about going back to school. I am not making this up – I was thinking about studying repairing furniture – (before I read you had done it) to work with my hands and have an actual, simple job. Make life simple. It’s great if you move to England! At least you are over here. So until the next time, I wish you well and more!

~ Om and love, Martina

Ram: Hi, Martina. Yes, now that you are getting an idea of what is involved, it is a matter of commitment. But since you have karma in the world – you have to support yourself – you should do your work in the karma yoga spirit, keep studying scripture and applying the understanding “I am awareness” whenever you find that your mind is off the track. It is difficult in the world, but not impossible. It is not correct to think that your work in the world is keeping you from enlightenment. In any case even if you were wealthy and had leisure you would still be a doer. We are all doers. We have no choice about it. Awareness shines on our bodies and minds twenty-four hours a day until they wear out and there is nothing to be done about it. So the only solution is to work in the right spirit and this will make your mind clear and pure, and your true goal will become more and more attractive. Yes, come to India and hear it. It can’t hurt. Good luck with everything. Write if you get near the internet.

~ Love, Ram