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You Don’t Have to Fix Anything
Dave: Christian, our Skype conversation was pretty significant for me in one important aspect: seeing/experiencing/knowing that I don’t have to fix anything. I’ve read a hundred times about leaving things unmodified, unchanged, etc. but as you were explaining it to me, I felt like something clicked for the first time.
My tendency was to get mired in a lot of complicated thought/analysis/inquiry. Not exactly “apply the opposite thought,” but that sort of two- or three-step process. I would contemplate the nature of perception and/or the reality of objects themselves. I’m doing pretty well at seeing that my attraction/frustration reaction is insentient and/or I’m aware of it: just seeing it’s not me, changing the relationship with it or seeing it as an object seems to sort of evaporate it.
I’m understanding my nature as consciousness/sentiency/existence better, what that means and how it relates to subject/object discrimination. I like the idea of the “mind movie” when it comes up. My go-to phrase was always “the manifest (holographic) product of waking state consciousness,” but “mind movie” highlights the subject/object discrimination a little better.
Finally, I’ve become attuned to how much my inquiry, practice and interests have revolved around perception, objects and appearance (or dealing with the appearance), and not directly related to my nature/identity as awareness or being sentient, existing or knowing. I’m trying to reorient to seeing/knowing myself as consciousness/awareness and everything else as an object/dead material product.
Thanks so much for your help and insight.
Christian: Dave, fantastic! You have clearly identified the shift in your inquiry that was needed.
You’ve gone from:
“I would contemplate the nature of perception and/or the reality of objects themselves,” which means thinking about objects known to you (being captivated by “thinking about stuff”)…
“…directly relating to my nature/identity as awareness or being sentient, existing or knowing,” which means turning the mind to you, over and over and over, in your direct experience right now.
You also clearly understand HOW to relate to your nature/identity – by being aware that you are (1) aware, (2) sentient, (3) existing and (4) knowing. This is very important because it shows that you understand from your own experience what you are. The four words you chose all mean exactly the same thing: you.
One more thing, remember how obvious you are. That you are aware is totally obvious. That you are sentient is totally obvious. That you exist is totally obvious. That you are knowing is totally obvious. It is this completely obvious, ordinary awareness, existing – that is you.
You’re on it!