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Self-Inquiry Requires Total Commitment
Prakesha: Hi, Isabella.
I was introduced to Vedanta teachings by James three years ago by one of my friends. I have been following Vedanta teaching off and on. My faith in “I am awareness” is deepening, but not absolute yet. How do I increase my faith in the teaching?
Sundari: The short answer is: it takes work. Ignorance is hardwired, tenaciously resistant and it can only be removed by self-knowledge.
If the qualifications for self-inquiry are not present in the mind and the desire for liberation from suffering as a result of bondage to objects is not all-consuming, self-inquiry will not work for you. There is no magic formula or magic wand to make this happen.Y ou need to commit.
This is what self-inquiry involves:
1. Sravana: Listening or hearing the scripture. This requires that you leave everything you previously believed or thought you knew temporarily on the shelf. You can take your beliefs back if self-knowledge does not work for you. But for now leave them on the shelf. This is very important; if you keep comparing Vedanta to all your beliefs and opinions and try to make it comply with them, forget about self-inquiry. Vedanta is a radical teaching; it is counter-intuitive; expect it to challenge everything you thought you knew. Without faith in the scripture (shraddha), self-inquiry will not work.
This is not blind faith, like religions demand, but faith pending the results of your own inquiry.
2. Manana: Reasoning, contemplation. This is thinking about what the scripture is saying, examining the unexamined logic of your own experience. At this point, you look at your beliefs and opinions in the light of what the scripture says, NOT the other way around.
3. Qualifications: One determines if all the qualifications necessary for moksa are present. If they are not, one has to develop them. Self-knowledge will not stick in a mind that is not prepared and purified. There is no purifier like self-knowledge (jnana yoga) but there are other practices one can do, like meditation, for instance – or even sitting in silence. But meditation (or any other practice) is an aid to self-inquiry; it does not equal self-inquiry nor does it take its place.
4. Karma yoga – negating the doer: Karma yoga, when practised properly, is really dharma yoga because every action you take is dedicated to Isvara; it is a consecration. It is understood that peace of mind only comes with the realisation that you are not in control of the dharma field, yet in taking the appropriate steps to act according to dharma and then relinquishing the results, peace of mind is produced. If you are not experiencing peace of mind by relinquishing results, you are not relinquishing results. It’s that simple – the doer is still there, afraid and small, still wanting a particular result, frustrated and afraid because it believes it needs the result to be safe or whole, as it is not getting what it wants.
Karma yoga is not to destroy the doer or, in some cases, even its sense of doership. Karma yoga is meant to clear the mind of enough likes and dislikes until it becomes composed enough to do sustained inquiry. Only inquiry removes the problem of doership because it shows that you, the self, cannot be the ego (doer) that is known to you. When that is clear, the doer can appear in you, even with a trace of doership, but you do not identify with it.
5. Triguna vibhava yoga: Once the mind is clear and established in karma yoga, the next step is to examine and identify one’s conditioning in light of self-knowledge, i.e. the gunas. This means you take an objective view of the programmes (vasanas) that modify the mind and make up the jiva’s “stuff.” If you do not have a good understanding of the gunas, what they are and how they function, I recommend that you go to the ShiningWorld website and use the search function on this vital topic. All the Shiningworld writers have written extensively about this, as has James in his books.
6. Establish a prakriya: Vedanta offers several practices that can be used very effectively to negate the doer and render the binding vasanas non-binding. The most effective is to practise the opposite thought. Whenever a toxic thought arises in the mind or a thought that contradicts your nature as awareness, immediately employ the opposite thought. For instance, if you have someone in your life that you have very bad thoughts about, think loving thoughts. If the toxic self-negating thoughts arise about you, think the opposite thought. You keep up this practice for every thought that arises in the mind that is contrary to your true nature as awareness.
7. Nididhyasana: Self-realisation, which is the full understanding of your true nature as awareness. This means you apply the knowledge to your life and take a stand in awareness as awareness. If the mind is still agitated by rajas and tamas because all the qualifications are not in place and binding vasanas still condition the mind, one has to go back and requalify. There is no other way to negate the doer and render the binding vasanas non-binding in order that self-actualisation – the final “stage” – can take place.
8. Self-actualisation: Once the knowledge is firm, one sees everything from the point of view of awareness first, second as the jiva, and one never confuses the two again. This is discriminating the self, you (satya), from the objects that appear in you (mithya) at all times, regardless of how the person is feeling. Sel-actualisation is the consistent, total application of self-knowledge to one’s life. To be self-actualised means (1) that one has fully discriminated the self (consciousness) from the objects appearing in it (all objects, meaning all gross objects as well as one’s conditioning, thoughts and feelings – all experience) and (2) that that knowledge has (a) rendered the binding vasanas non-binding and (b) negated one’s sense of doership.
Unless self-knowledge translates fully into the life of the person, it cannot be said that self-actualisation has taken place, because the person will still be identified with certain aspects of being a person. In other words, binding vasanas and the sense of doership or egoic belief in separation will still be causing agitation in the mind. In order for existential suffering to end and for awareness to be one’s primary identity, the person needs to be free of the idea of being a person in order to live free as the self. What is the point of self-realisation if the mind is still under the tyranny of its likes and dislikes (vasanas)?
One can only fully actualise self-knowledge when you have understood the identity between awareness, Isvara and the jiva. This is where most people get stuck (or come un-stuck) in their self-inquiry and it is why many self-realised people do not self-actualise. Understanding Isvara is the key. This is probably one of the most important teachings of Vedanta.
These steps are not necessarily linear; one can jump around a great deal until self-knowledge has removed all ignorance and the knowledge is firm. Many inquirers go through a stage when the knowledge is on or off, what we call the “firefly” stage. They get disheartened and start to criticise or feel bad about themselves when the knowledge is not constant or they “slip up.” Don’t get discouraged by this, as it is a pretty normal stage for everyone to go through. Lifetimes of ignorance will take as long it takes to dissolve. And prarabdha karma (the momentum of past actions) will play out as long as it plays out. It is not up to the jiva but to Isvara. The price of freedom is eternal vigilance – so day by day, brick by brick allow self-knowledge to do the work of removing every last vestige of ignorance.
And lastly and very importantly: nididhysana never ends for the jiva.
Prakesha: When I live with the feeling that I am awareness, and try to sleep at night, I do not fall asleep easily which ruins my next day. Please let me know if there is a way to help this situation.
Sundari: Awareness is not a feeling. It is the hard and fast knowledge that your true identity is whole and complete, unchanging, unlimited and ever-present awareness, and not the person you appear to be. For self-knowledge to obtain permanently in the mind, the doer has to be negated, the binding vasanas must be identified in the light of self-knowledge, understood and rendered non-binding. As I said, there is no magic fix for the mind other than self-knowledge, and for this it has to be qualified and dedicated to self-inquiry above all else. Self-inquiry means examining the true nature of the mind by exposing it to a valid means of knowledge taught by a qualified teacher. There is no teaching like Vedanta, as it offers a complete means of knowledge for awareness, but it has to be properly taught or the mind will interpret the teachings according to the filters (vasanas, or tendencies) that run it. Please read the steps for self-inquiry that I have outlined above. You need to be sure you understand and follow all of them if freedom from limitation and permanent peace of mind is the most important thing to you.
In order for us to help you, you need to do your part; we cannot do self-inquiry for you.If your interest is “on and off,” you are wasting your time and ours. We ask everyone who writes to us to follow these steps:
1. Read either of Ram’s books How to Attain Enlightenment or The Essence of Enlightenment SLOWLY and carefully. Sign on to the logic at every step of the way, do not skip. Reread it until it starts to make sense to you. I recommend Essence, as it is an easier read for beginners.
2. Read as many of the e-satsangs freely available at the ShiningWorld website, using the search function to facilitate questions.
3. Watch as many videos of Ram teaching as possible. We have a very reasonable subscription service available at the website, and you can also watch many hours of teaching for free at YouTube.
~ Namaste, Sundari