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Freedom Is Loving Your Imperfect Self
Ramji: Hi, Rheinhart. Lovely to hear from you. Sorry for the delay replying but I have become quite famous and have a million things to do. However, I always reply to my emails. I made comments below.
Rheinhart: Thanks for your response, James. Tim’s death has been quite a shock for me as well, especially because he was probably my closest dharma friend. I met him in Tiruvannamalai while attending your talks back in 2011. Death seems to happen, and as you say… at the end it equals zero. I have no idea about what happens to our soul or if we even have such a thing.
Ramji: Your “soul” is just you, awareness, plus the idea that you are a person. The awareness – you – never dies, but as long as you think of yourself as a person and pursue your desires and indulge your fears, that person takes up another body when the present physical body dies. Fortunately, the next person doesn’t remember consciously who it was previously, but it inherits all Rheinhart’s problems. You have difficulties now because the person you were before didn’t resolve his issues. Death is like going to sleep. You are no longer Rheinhart when you are asleep, but when you wake up Rheinhart and and all his stuff comes back.
Rheinhart: I do feel a sincere call for help coming from my heart, dear Ramji, a prayer for guidance in order to remove this ignorance that keeps me believing that I’m other than you.
Ramji: The place to start is to read my book The Essence of Enlightenment. It will give you the roadmap. If, after you have read it, you have questions, you can write to me and I will help you move forward. You need a path. Or if it is too difficult, get The Yoga of Love from the website and read it. It may be easier to start with.
Rheinhart: The day that Tim’s body was burned, I had this dream…
I’m arriving at the sanctuary beach (a Thai beach where I met him and he was spending half the year). Everything is calm, clean and sunny. What am I doing here? How did I arrive? I feel peaceful and in joy to be there. This is were my heart wants to be. For the first time the beach is empty of people. I will look for Tim’s spirit (is my thought). Then I move inside a restaurant and finally see a man sitting there. I come closer and talk to him… while realizing that I’m actually in a dream. And I tell him, “Have you noticed? We are in a dream… Look! there are no waves and we were expecting a typhoon today… you are ‘free’ and you can do whatever you want to do, now that you know.”
As soon as I tell him that, I start thinking… oooh, well… what should I do? Since I am also in a dream… and cannot find any specific desire, but then feel uncomfortable because… what the fuck! I am dreaming, not the dreamer! I should be doing something enjoyable!! Or at least get rid of the fears…
Ramji: The beach sanctuary is the self – who you are and where Rheinhart is going on this journey of life. Tim is also a symbol of your self – he is a kind someone who invokes your spiritual desire, like a guru. The second idea in the dream is the idea that life is just a dream. If it is just a dream, all one’s problems are just dream problems. It means that you are free – as awareness – even when life is difficult. The next idea – freedom is freedom to do what you want – should not be take literally. This belief is responsible for a lot of suffering. When you are free you understand that doing what you want only works when dharma is taken into consideration because doing impacts others and injuring others in the name of freedom to do what you want is not freedom. Freedom means unconditional love, which means that others’ needs are as valuable as yours. Having said that, freedom means that you can develop a life of spontaneity and joy while following the rules of life. The next idea – “I can’t find any desire” – means that when you know who you are you are free of your desires. Doing something enjoyable is not a problem when you know who you are, because you enjoy yourself completely irrespective of what your body is doing. The implied meaning of this dream is that Rheinhart is not satisfied with his life, because fears limit it. It shows a strong identification with the doer, which means that he is attached to his desires.
~ Love, Ramji