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Freed from Specialness
This email demonstrates the workings of Vedanta, a beautiful letter of conviction from Once-a-Seeker.
Once-a-Seeker: Hey, Daniel.
Damn, that high spiritual energy really had me trapped! Stupid kundalini or whatever.
Now, I know myself, awareness, as simply very ordinary. I kind of envision myself as the sun shining rays to all corners as the source/preserver of everything. (While of course I, awareness, am eternal and the sun isn’t.)
Sounds special maybe, but I think of it as very ordinary.
I seem to know it as myself, no more separation between the knower and known.
Now, when I look at the Om symbol, I simply see myself, very ordinary awareness, not special at all.
It is a tough nut to crack. Jiva can never be limitless, while I am always limitlessly self-shining.
A couple of days ago I thought: I want to be ordinary or not be at all.
These spiritual states make the jiva completely restless; vasanas start kicking in like crazy, etc.
I feel an ordinary sense of calm. Vedanta leaves it to me to verify.
Also, I don’t have any reference points, because I know awareness as myself and there is only myself.