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Inquirer: Hey, Daniel.
Once we've realized who we are, we gain the doubt-free knowledge “I am awareness.” But because we’ve been conditioned to think of ourselves as jivas, we seem to “overlook” what we’ve realized. So although we had our doubts removed, the realization is not in the foreground, so to speak. Hence we do inquiry and continue to expose our minds to the teachings, nididhyasana, so that we can look back and say, “I realized the truth.” This stage cannot be forced, because the belief “I am a jiva” will be dropped automatically as soon as we see we already were enlightened.
Daniel: One hundred per cent correct. The belief that we’re the jiva is so darn hardwired it takes time for that limited identity to drop and for the realisation “I am awareness” to shift firmly to the foreground.
You’re spot on with nididhyasana, the process of continuing to expose your mind to the teachings until there no longer lingers a doubt. Good for you.