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Hit up the Nididhyasana Game
Bill: I have had an interesting few weeks, frustrating in some ways. I had a breakthrough in contemplating the fact that it’s freedom from, not freedom for, the apparent me. I fully understood this, and my identity flipped from the objects to the subject. Well, that’s the best way I can describe it.
Daniel: Your description is spot on and gives me the warm fuzzies. Freedom is freedom from Bill. Bill is an object that appears in/to the subject, you.
Bill: The trouble is the understanding then bloody disappeared, ha, ha!! It’s like so clear to me one moment, then it’s gone. And the harder I to try to re-understand it, the more frustrated I get!
Daniel: Apparently, it disappeared – but not really disappeared. But I know what you mean. Don’t worry too much about this; we call this the “firefly” stage, a shifting between subject (you) and object (Bill).
The belief that we’re the jiva is so darn hardwired, it takes time for that reflected identity to drop and for the realisation “I am awareness” to shift firmly to the foreground. Welcome to the stage of nididhyasana, the process of continuing to expose your mind to the teachings until there no longer lingers a doubt.
Bill: I do take it with good humour, as I know it’s just a matter of time, and I keep reading the teachings every day. But I must admit, it’s pissing me off a little!!
Daniel: Amen to humour, the fourth guna! Allow Bill to get pissed off; that’s fine because you’re always free of Bill.
Bill: Any suggestions? Thanks for your time. ☺
Daniel: Hit up the nididhyasana game and take it easy. You’ve cracked the code, now it’s just a matter of gently grounding the knowledge through constant application of the teachings.