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Thomas: Dear Ramji, I just wanted to thank you for all of your help, support and skillful wielding of the teachings. You took me from being totally confused, frustrated and ready to quit the spiritual life to moksa in six months flat.
I think the doer’s initial resistance to this “happening” was partly based on its idea that it would take a really long time. The doer was in it for the long haul and ready to DO, DO, DO! It was super-pissed and incredulous that the search was over. When you first told me, it was like, “Free? Surely not you. Couldn’t be! Better go DO something!” It was funny that you had to tell me again over Skype (even after the akandakara vritti, no less). Even after that the ego was just pitching a fit and tossing around all kinds of fears and nonsense like, “What if you really AREN’T enlightened?” But it was so obvious that all of those thoughts were just insentient objects appearing in me that it really didn’t matter. I even tried to forget that I was awareness to see if I could. And well, I’m sure you know how that turned out.
This whole last week at work has been incredibly hectic and chaotic. But experientally speaking, there has just been a great sense of peace and rock-like solidity. Everything just appears and resolves in me and oftentimes it’s rather humorous. So anyway, I’m sure you’ve heard this story a thousand times, so I’ll stop here.
Again, thank you so much for everything. Keep up the good work. I look forward to watching those Atma Bodh DVDs you’re sending me; they’ll be much appreciated. Thanks for going to all the trouble of sorting out that whole hard-drive thing. I will send one of the hard drives back to your Portland address unless you prefer me to mail it somewhere else.
~ Love, Thomas
James: Dear Thomas, it was fun. It’s a shame that you can’t get endarkened again, so we can do it again. ☺
~ Love, James