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Just Gotta Ride Them Out
Talia: Dear Christian, I am still ill, but another “event” took place that burns up all my energy.
I think I am in a “dark night of the soul,” so to speak. I burst into tears very often, losing my hope, feeling isolated and fundamentally lonely, and I cannot see the deeper sense of life.
Last night I dreamt of two beautiful Gothic churches. I attended the holy mass there, and it was beautiful. I can still remember exactly how the church looked inside.
Why being part of this world we are apparently living in when everything is just a dream? Why fighting for your goals in life when everything has no meaning?
How cruel is Isvara to let us fall asleep and then waking us up again, and the other way around?
I don’t wanna be a part of this show… but I have duties to fulfill… how funny... I think to some degree I can feel what Arjuna may have felt before his war.
I am interested: What you could tell me about this “dark night”?
Thank you for your time.
~ Much love, Talia
Christian: Dear Talia, yes, you are feeling exactly like Arjuna felt, and that is exactly why the Gita was written – because every jiva has to go through these intensely hard times, and they are what makes life tough, sometimes unbearable.
I agree, it sucks and doesn’t seem to make sense, but clearly that perspective doesn’t help or change it.
There is no “why,” so what are we left to do but take the advice of the Gita and start working the mind out of its “victim-complaining” place into the truth?
Technically speaking, you can understand that you’re getting overwhelmed with very deep vasanas.
You can see that you’re really attached to some things being a certain way, and that attachment is causing you pain.
The solution is to work on the attachments, let them go, through karma yoga.
Experientially you may not feel any better after reading these words, and you might not be able to get out of your funk for a while. That’s why deep vasanas suck so badly. You just gotta ride them out.
But if you keep reminding yourself of the truth, as you’re patient with feeling hopeless and just let it go where it’s got to go, then you’ll come out of it sooner and you’ll be closer to what you really want, the direct knowledge that will set you free.