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Isvara Is Behind It All
Sundari: Hello, Stephanie. How lovely to hear from you and what a great surprise!
It seems you have got hooked into thinking that something is wrong with the world and should be different. ☺ Wanting things to be other than the way Isvara plays them out is a recipe for much suffering! Keep in mind that no one is doing anything, Isvara srsti unfolds the way it does and the gunas are making everything “happen.” There are no bad people, no “consumers” really, there is just ignorance and things are the way they are because of it. Maya makes everyone to appear to be doing stuff, but are they? You know that this is an apparent reality which does exist, one cannot deny it, but that does not make it a real one. Stephanie, the apparent person, or ego, has a vasana for sattva; these feelings you have are rajas – injustice, outrage, frustration and agitation about the “state of the world.” The tamas is the lack of inspiration and feeling of pointlessness. They do not belong to you and none of this has anything to do with you; you know you are the one that knows that Stephanie is feeling depressed and agitated.
There is nothing wrong with anything or anyone, it’s all the way it is because it’s the way it is – and you can’t change any of it. You can only make peace with it knowing that you are not the doer, Stephanie – and neither is anyone else who they think they are. When Isvara wants things to be different, they will be. It is arrogance to think that the jiva can effect lasting change; neither the jiva nor awareness can do so, the jiva because it has limited power and the self because it is fine with things the way they are and sees nothing but itself. If you want to work with changing the world, start with how you live and take a karma yoga attitude to all of it. You know all this, you actually don’t have a real problem. I am not telling you anything you don’t already know!
You are such a beautiful soul, so shiny and clear. You hold the light of the self in your presence, and both Ramji and I think you are wonderful. We meet many people, many great minds and souls. You have highly-developed dispassion and discrimination, and you apply them. It is not easy for a self-realised soul to live with a samsari, it is a challenge. You can only do it with the karma yoga attitude, as you know, and serving them as the self, which of course they are.
I hope this helps; I know it can be very painful to get caught up in the seeming degradation of the apparent reality, but remember it is only a seeming degradation. Degradation is just an idea in Stephanie’s mind. So is inspiration. You don’t need inspiration – YOU are the inspiration that inspires inspiration. ☺
We are almost ready to leave for India; James leaves this Tuesday coming and I follow him just after Christmas, which I am spending with my daughter and her fiancé and her dad, at her home in La Lucia. We have been here for six weeks already, time has flown. Ramji has almost finished his next book which promises to be his best to date. I have been helping him edit, writing e-satsangs and doing some sculpture. ☺ We have had a great time. Why not join us in India? It would be great to see you again someday. We will soon have our base in Spain, which will have accommodation for guests, so you can come over and spend some time with us. We would like that. ☺
Much love to you, dear and beautiful self.
Stephanie: Hi, Sundari. I keep meaning to write but… you know how it goes.
Now I’m in the middle of a bad cold and my body is totally tamasic – something I’m not used to. Meditating makes me feel lightheaded, and reading, dizzy. So I (this Stephanie-complex) feels like I’ve lost my inspiration. Life seems a bit pointless. I only see I’m surrounded by consumerism and unawareness – so little compassion for ourselves and our planet. John and I are very up on the state of the environment and I’ve become disheartened by the speed at which it’s deteriorating. I know there is actually nothing to do about it and am usually very sanguine, but at the moment it makes it harder to watch myself going through these strange motions of living every day. God, how “stuff” irritates me at the moment – even thoughts. And then I even think that John is too much “stuff” and that I’d lead a much more sattvic, spiritual life if I didn’t have him around distracting me and tempting me. I feel I’m as much of an oxygen-thief as all the babies I criticize the world for having. How’s that for tamas! ☺ Feel much better now!
Other than all that, I am doing very well and really just wanted to say hi (and not off-load negativity – but I know you’ll understand).
~ Much love to you both, Stephanie