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Lost the Plot… or Found It?
Tom: I had no desire to write this email. However, I thought it may just make you (as a teacher, aka the slave to your student!) get a warm fuzzy-wuzzy feeling. Perhaps a sigh of relief… (“Thank God, this kid may just leave me alone now!”).
I landed up at a seven-day silent retreat not so long ago. I was with Shanti and Mary and a few more of your die-hard, cheerleading groupies. During this time in the silent space, the mechanics of the mind were clearly revealed. In the stillness/clarity attention focused on attention, I realized that it was love loving love. Here is the simple math equation that popped up: love + love = love = 1 = perfect/complete.
All the emails, the words, the audios and videos, tears, smiles, body-transcending, bla, bla, blas too tedious to mention and non-stop inquiry instantly zipped itself into one perfect balloon and then popped, leaving nothing but me. ☺
Graced by the Divine, the intuition of death is the most valuable tool and leaves no escape, as it forces the mind to surrender its identity. There is no death… only Bliss.
This is not to blab on about any spiritual experiences and “clicks” but to thank you for your persistent guidance, witty approach and love.
God willing, death will be cheated and I will see you October! I’m looking forward to a nice Mooji-hug from you!
James: Ugh! Nothing worse.
Tom: A few final chirps… whenever there are physical, mental, emotional, good and bad situations, there remains this ever-present calmness, a grounded acceptance and peace.
Things are seen and felt, but no storyline is present, presented or attached. This is amazing. What relief, what freedom! Playing in this apparent world is so much more fun!
I now understand what you mean when you say, “You are whole and complete.” This understanding seems to be continuously there, a vibrating sense of non-stop love. Is this referred to as “inwardness”?
No compulsive desire arises to change, gain, alter or obtain things and situations. Things appear, get observed and again melt away in this warm pool of love/ever-existence… aka ME!
Another lovely thing is that boredom ceases to exist.
My parents think I have lost the plot. I have very little need to “do” or react. Much of the time is enjoyed by mySelf in a simple, calm space… this must appear to be quite crazy, as I was once a non-stop, high-speed, action-experiencing-chasing guy!
Putting all the “spiritual” stuff aside for a second, the physical body has too reaped some lovely benefits. The energy levels (I once had chronic fatigue) have been very generous, with mental clarity arriving too.
I have shed a few tears since. I can’t quite work out if they are tears of joy or “sympathetic tears” from realizing what suffering this poor vehicle went through for so long.
~ With love, Tom
James: Dear Tom, what a great email. It warms the cockles of my hard gurugic heart. I am so glad that you have cracked the code! Amazing for someone of your tender (physical) years. It just goes to show that if you have the burning desire to understand, you can realize who you are at any age. The inwardness you ask about is the effect of assimilation of the knowledge that you are whole and complete. When you get it the mind goes inward and peace and love ensue. Good for you. And the tears you speak of are bhakti, pure devotion/love. You are very blessed. The appreciation you show toward me is much appreciated. I also like very much what you say about death as a meditation. I found it very effective when I was seeking the self. I think those death-thoughts were just Isvara keeping you on the path until you cracked the code. I think you will be with us here on the earth for a long time spreading joy. In any case I have asked Isvara to keep you alive at least until October when I get the opportunity to have your divine darshan.
~ Much love, Guruji