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Shining Back from Toronto!
Tom: Dear Ram, dear Sundari, love, blessings and gratitude! You are not only great teachers but inspiration as well. I have been studying Vedanta at your website since last year. I purchased How to Achieve Enlightenment last year and the USB stick collection yesterday (don’t forget to add the “enlightenment certificate” ☺).
(I thought) I have been a “spiritual seeker for 15 years… what a waste of time ☺… although it was fun because I knew I will figure it out, plus all the “yoga” and “spirituality” taught me discipline and sattvic life, which is a better way of (apparent) living. It all started with being an altar boy in a Catholic church in Poland ☺, love for Jesus and Catholic saints (I still have them on my wall and in my heart) and joining a secular Franciscan order (the heart of Catholic spirituality). Catholicism was freaking me out with its rigid dogmas and constant affirmation of our sinful nature and separation from God – which I didn’t believe. This coincided with completely accidental ingestion of LSD which dissolved my mind for a few hours 13 years ago. This experience, which I was never proud of, actually helped me a lot.
I realized that until then I was stuck my whole life in a “tiny box somewhere in my brain” as “thinker.” I “saw” that I am everything, vast, unchanging, eternal, free. I experienced shakti/kundalini, and after that I left law school, moved to Canada and dedicated my life to dissolution of the person, seeking God and making experience of oneness permanent. ☺
I looked everywhere: Buddhism, Sufism, shamanism, Hinduism, the International Society for Krishna Consciousness, many “yogas,” A Course in Miracles, Neo Advaita, some neo-Buddhism and some Vedanta (Sailor Bob Adams and other students of Nisargadatta)… you name it… I intuitively started choosing a sattvic lifestyle, learned naturopathic medicine, traditional Chinese medicine, Ayurvedic medicine, healing arts, kundalini yoga, bhakti yoga. Although it was all a side effect of desperately trying to find God and happiness, it produced wonders for this jiva (they call it “happy dream” in A Course in Miracles). But experiences come and go and require constant practice, effort and the “sattvic high.” The last two years I have been chanting “Ram” as my mantra, like Neem Karoli Baba, and I found Ramana Maharshi. When I learned about self-enquiry, I knew I found what I was looking for. Until then I was looking for and at objects, spirituality was all about objects, everything was objects, God was an object of my love (God an object?! Hmm…). So I googled “self-enquiry Vedanta” and the third result caught my attention: ShiningWorld. “Shining”… that’s it! There is something about that word… I love it! ☺ I have been your student since then… and it’s awesome! I have read all the e-satsangs, the newsletter, seen the YouTube videos, read all the Vedanta texts, and I followed everything like a blindfolded kid at his birthday party. I realized that I am the Light and that there is only the Light. Like in a movie theatre, everyone is looking at images on the wall, looking for meaning and not being aware that there is only that Light… or Intelligence… that makes all objects appear intelligent, or the “Life” that makes some object appear alive. The body is walking, breathing… but I know for sure that I am not walking. I am not changing, I am like space or the ocean in which objects change, nothing can be added or subtracted, so NO ACTION CAN CHANGE ANYTHING, so no need to strive, look for anything…
I look forward to your seminar in Toronto. Please keep your jiva healthy; every time I find an awesome guru, I find out that he is dead already. ☺
Thank you again. Forgive my style and errors, English is my second language.
~ Tom from Toronto
PS: I can send you recipes for great elixirs (herbs with superfoods) to supercharge your shakti/jing/essence.