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Seeker: I don’t mean to bug you, James, but my cup runneth over. I came across an email I wrote about two years ago. The funny thing is the truth was coming out of my mouth but I was too ignorant to fully claim it. I see now that there were some errors but, gosh, how close I was! How did I not see it? It is as plain as the nose on my apparent face. Ignorance, as you say, is dazzlingly effective.
I have had a gazillion obvious insights in my life… they were like slaps to the head… but I did not get it until now. There is little hope without Vedanta. My gratitude for Vedanta grows. I seem to be hardwired for this knowledge. I am trying to learn the Sankrit words, but language is not easy for me; however, some are sinking in.
I can’t believe I was so close and yet so far. My prayers for freedom have been met and life sent me you and your beautiful wife to “close the deal.”
I am so glad it was you and so pleased I didn’t get into the Indian knowledge systems before. Thank God. I needed a teacher who is human and has a sense of humour, who swears, wears shorts and can take the mickey out of stuff. I get how some may not understand you, but you never pretend to be anything other than what you say you are. I am more of a diplomat but, hey, Isvara needs all types of fruit to fall from the tree of knowledge. ☺
Mary and I have dedicated Mondays to “meat-tube Mondays”! She works for/with me and she too is in the spaceless space and peaceful joy of this. It has taken hold of her mind and is rooting out all traces of illusion.
Today I taught and something was slightly different; the whispering traces of attachment to the feelings of my students are gone. The silence of being is pervasive. I wondered for a moment if I could still teach after realising who I am, but I felt totally neutral about it. It didn’t matter at all. Sure enough, the mouth and the words came out as always. Perhaps they were a bit slower appearing in the emptiness.
Sorry for the long email.
James: Don’t ever feel that you are taking up my time. I want to hear from you whenever you feel the need, which I suppose will be infrequent if at all because, as you say, the deal has been closed. Sundari related to your email completely, as this was the case with her also. She dug up some old poetry and read it and you could see how it was right there all along but she just missed it – until Vedanta revealed it. Just stick with the Vedanta and do what you do. Everything is perfect. I admire you so much for the integrity of your search. With your psychic and mystical nature it would have been particularly easy to get trapped in insight and epiphany, but you resisted and it paid off.
~ Much love, James