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The Okay-ness of the Jiva
Caroline: Dearest Sundari, oh so many thanks for the clarity you bring to the questions we all hold in our hearts. You and Ramji are quite a team!!! I love you! Thank you, thank you!!!!
The attached is an extraordinary document, filled with your wisdom and wit and again shone light on the relationship between witnessing awareness and non-witnessing awareness. Doubts drop and confidence in the simplicity of knowledge reveals itself. Caroline is chipping away! My definitive experience vasana has been overwhelming, and slowly, slowly the truth is emerging from the cloud. I am so grateful to you in the way you explain the okay-ness of the jiva when Caroline knows who she is.
This week I received a blow to the heart from someone I love. I was shocked by my reaction. I turned to Bhagavan and the teachings for help. I clicked onto the satsang page and “randomly” picked a few to place on my desktop and read to help understand why I still felt so miserable about what was said, and this after all the years of teachings… So what showed up in the clicking was “The definitive experience.” (Oh, what a thought – a torch-blowing rishi in Nebraska!!!! How wonderful is that! Ted Schmidt, I marvel at the clarity of expression.) “Superimposition and freedom through suffering.” Wow.
The cliche we hear in psychology and self-help books, “love yourself,” flashed in, as self is love and it is also the entity Caroline. What more could there be?
I was so touched and appreciative of what you wrote about spiritual language and all the confusion around that. I am so grateful to you for relentlessly coming home to the truth, using language that does not allow anything to stick to it. No add-ons!
Sundari: Hello, Caroline. How lovely to hear from you! I am so glad to hear that you are benefitting from the e-satsangs. It is interesting that you randomly picked the satsang you did, as the writer is such a special young man. I have been coaching him for over a year now and I think he will make an excellent teacher one day. Ramji and I are busy full-time with the e-satsangs and it is a great privilege to have contact with such beautiful minds – which are non-different from me – all over the world. “We” are all united in our endeavour as jivas to live free of the jiva, while remaining a jiva in “the world”! It is such an incredible relief to drop the pressure of having to live up to anything, be anything or behave in any particular way. There really is no such thing as text-book enlightenment.
Nothing really changes except how you contact and experience objects.
Samsara is just a notion in the mind, and when duality is known to be only apparently real, it is no longer a problem. Samsara is then over for you, although the apparent reality remains.
Facing emotional upheaval without self-knowledge is pure hell – which is what most people are stuck in. Knowing that whatever emotions are arising in you as the self are not you and not identifying with them is the only way to sanity.
I taught this to my daughter from very young: what we feel may be true in that it indicates our present state of mind, but it is not the truth about who we are. Without this knowledge, life is unbroken suffering because samsara is guaranteed to break your heart, break your spirit and fragment the mind.
What a gift Vedanta is! How very blessed we are who have the good grace to have stumbled upon it.
I heard you have been very unwell and I hope that you are better now. The East is a tough environment at the best of times, much more so when one is ill. Ramji leaves for Tiruvannamalai in a few weeks, and I join him just after Christmas. I hope that we will see you there.
Our deep love and very warmest wishes to you.
~ Om and prem, Sundari
Caroline: Dearest Sundari, how kind of you to write! Thank you. Your daughter is lucky to have learned from you so early in life, and not only is she lucky but beautiful to behold too.
Thank you too for the good wishes and aligning thoughts. Yes, I am better after the dengue fever. It took me by surprise, not used to having health problems. I kept remembering Ramji’s tales of the filaria bug and how Bhagavan loves us equally; it made me smile through the aches in my body.
I am planning on being with you for the Panchadasi and at this point not yet sure how much longer I can stay. So yes, it will be wonderful to be in satsang. I look forward to it very much.
~ In deep gratitude and love, Caroline
Sundari: Hello, Caroline. So glad to hear that you are much better now! Yes, it is one thing to laugh about Ramji’s tale of woe in satsang but quite another to take the karma yoga attitude when one is really sick. Good for you – you made it through with dispassion and clarity.
We look forward to seeing you in Tiru and are very happy that you can make it!
~ Much love to you from both of us, Sundari