I didn’t realize how ignorant I was being. Nididyasana is ignorance. This field of existence is like a flowing river. It doesn’t matter if I say, “I am a river drop, this drop motion comes from my volition, “I” am moving.” River flows anyway; hallucinations don’t change anything. And so the witness of all calls itself a drop and puts itself through unbelievable, unnecessary suffering because – mystery solved – it was always all up to the river (intelligent ignorant awareness but in actuality “just awareness”).
Doership came because I applied a name and form to myself, existence shining as ever present, blissful (that part is not made up) awareness. After telling Isvara for so long… I am a drop, I am a drop…(entranced), I’m still delivered drop experience. And so I happily live out these effects of my past ignorance. I have tremendous love for you, Ramji (my own self). What a mystery, I free my own self.
Once a Seeker
