Dear Ramji,
Thank you, that means a lot for me. But in fact I want Ishvara to give me deep understanding and realize the truth before anything else. When I look back, Ishvara always gave me food and a place to sleep.
Even when life is not nice, the last years I became very well trained to handle a tough unpleasant life and karma yoga is a perfect sadhana to transform also a shitty life into a helpful experience. It really gave me so much power, shakti the last two years ! I can really feel that all my thoughts and actions are getting more and more sattvic.
There are still many places in me that are ugly and nasty and selfish, addictive, but I take them as prasad, and let Ishvara take care of them. Its just the garbage from a lost jiva, who tried to squeeze happiness out of objects for many many years. I AM FAR AWAY FROM BEING A SAINT. But thats ok. Its not the real ME.
My desire is very strong now, I can really see anything else is a zerosum and will always dissapoint me at the end, I will be never be satisified from the fullfillment of worldly desires of any kind. My inner life is that of an eremit and monk, more and more.
Even the kings in this world suffer like sick dogs, with all their money and power. Nobody is happy in this world. Nobody is REALLY happy.
Only the one who knows the self is truely happy.
All my desire is going to that one desire now, to understand and be able to enbody Ishvaras teaching. Maybe then I can contribute something useful to that world before its time for this body to get three feet under.
To come in contact with you and your vedanta is the kindest gift from Ishvara ever and shows me how much he helps me and takes care of me, and that he recognized my desperate search for freedom.
Its a pitty, I have to work the weekend of the seminar, but I join your zoom satsangs as much as I can.
They are so very helpful in this lockdown days!
I chant your lineage invokation every day a lot, and it makes me feel so good, its like the song of a warrior somehow. It has really a strong power and I love it! This sanskrit language is so powerful.
Your work is an amazing blessing for all seekers out there and I am sure it will burn and shine like hell in the future because its does the job! In two years I understand so much now, the 25 years before was nothing compared to the results and the happiness I got in just two years with that vedanta.
Beyond words. I can just go on learning and apply that in my life, with open mouth. What to say?
It must be true that this is gods teaching without doubt. There is no other option, no human can make this out by himself.
Much love, deep respect, H….
